I’m at a point in my life where there is still room for growth but where time for change is pressing. So I’m making changes. So tonight I prayed.
I pray for my kids all the time, but for my husband, don’t know why, but I just seem to shut down completely. But tonight I prayed. I took hold of his hands and just prayed. I wish it was just as easy as that, it wasn’t really, and I doubt it will be any easier next time. But I am determined to be faithful. You are blessed dear husband, you are loved, unconditionally, sacrificially, by God your father, and hopefully, prayerfully, one day, by me, your wife. Amen.
Letting God into every part of my heart is taking so long! Why does it seem like I keep wanting to take back one part as soon as I give Him another?
This past month hasn’t been easy for my family and I wish I took it before the Lord, but I didn’t. So my prayer is to seek guidance. This is my prayer:
I pray Holy Spirit that my joy will be full because You are my focus, that I will love because I know I don’t deserve yours Father God, but yet you do love me. I pray that I will have a personal conviction on each glorious fruit of your holiest Spirit in order that I may bear an abundance of fruit as blessing. That peace will not just be a state of mind but a reality of my freedom, that patience will not be a way I act when I don’t feel like waiting, but a result of your love pouring through me. I pray that I’ll be kind by nature, wanting to bless because blessing is a blessing in itself. I pray for good to become more than just an answer to “How are you,” but a character of my own. May I discover what it means to be good the more I grow in the knowledge of who You are Jesus my Lord, redeemer and saviour! Holy Spirit, may you guide me in all faithfulness, so I depend on You, trust your Word and my hope not be vain, but full of power and Truth. I pray that I see it in every aspect of life and not just in time of need. And then lastly Lord I lay gentleness and self-control down. Lord help me. I need your guidance and truth to lead me into all gentleness and self-control. You are my rock, the light that guides me. Amen.
Sweet dreams mommies.